Today

has been a very important day to grow and to think about wrong turns I have made in the past.

They always come back to haunt you.

I am very tired of being punished for things that are and were entirely out of my control. I hate that I, for once, have my shit together but that it's always something. I have been trying to turn that around for a year. I was well on my way to doing so - until yesterday when things began to unravel, then of course things fell completely apart today... Unfortunately for me there is nothing I can do to reverse the situation, I just have to grin and bear it.

Again, I vow to turn things around. Everything I do is for me - not anyone else. If it takes me picking up the pieces from someone elses trash - so be it.